April 09, 2010

the moment.


I've never been a big person on "relationships", even though as we all know, i've been in plenty.. but I always thought to myself that they would end, and I would move on like I always do..at a fast rate. And that person would be in my past..just like all the rest. Added to the hate megan fan club!
I never really saw myself "getting married"..and it still is a new proposition, trust me. I never saw myself as the homemaker, wait at home, kids..type. And you might find that funny because come on, i'm a preschool teacher for heaven's sake. But the thought of having people depend on me..and have that huge role of "wife" and "mom"..really has always scared the crap out of me.

Until recently. It's all I can think of. I think of weddings, babies, marriage. I mean.. this whole living together thing is quite a new concept, but I am loving it. I am loving the feeling of Kevin always being at my side. Always being there for me. And people probably think that I'd get sick of him, because well I am me..and people don't "stick" very well in my life, but I never get sick of him. I love the fact that he comes home to me. And suddenly i've had this urge to bake and cook all sorts of great things. And why?! because I actually want to make something for Kevin when he gets home! How weird is that, the thought of me baking? It's really been insane.

Due to all of these urges, it's got me thinking as to why exactly I feel this way, when i've never felt this way before, even in those long long relationships I was in. I never actually saw myself walking down the isle, or poppin out kids. So why all of the sudden?

Because he is the one. He is the one that I was meant to be with. He was made for me. Literally. It sounds all to chick flick sappy lovey dovey. But it is true. I honestly feel like through all of these guys i've dated and all the trials i've been through in life. They were preparing me to be with him.

And well, i sure am prepared.

"The moment has come to face the truth
I'm wide awake and so are you
Do you have a clue what this is? (I don't know)
Are you everything that I missed? (I don't hope so)
We'll just have to wait and see (Wait and see)
If things go right we're meant to be"



note: the picture, is mine & kevin's hands! we got pictures done by my amazingly talented love, arielle voght. more to come in upcoming posts.

2 comments:

  1. I'm so happy for you! I didn't think I'd get married, either. The mom part still scares me a lot, but now I can't see myself not doing it. And I'm really excited to see John as a dad. (That will be so cute.) You're picture makes me feel so sunny inside. :D I love seeing you in love. :)

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