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Atticus: one month

Atticus is one month old!  This month flew by,  I feel like we just brought him home from the hospital & now he's a whole month old!  He is just the tiniest little thing & is a dream baby.  Sleeps all day, eats & then goes back to sleep all night, I actually googled "Too much sleep for newborn?" the other day, there is no such thing haha loving this cuddly sleepy stage & our perfect little baby!

Age: 1 month
Height: 20.5 inches
Weight: 8 lbs
- Sleeping
- Eating, he's a ravenous little guy
- His big brother, he's VERY entertaining
- Warm baths
- Peeing on his parents often

- Diaper changes
- Hunger
- Being naked
- Medicine (gas drops)
- When he pees on himself

Big Moments:
- Takes binky & bottle & nurses like a pro
- First outing: Target, per tradition.  3 days old
- First Halloween!
- At one month he has such good head control & is so observant when he is awake.

- Wearing newborn diapers & clothes.
- No shoes fit his tiny little feet.

tid bits: the first 2 weeks

Bringing baby home!
I left the hospital after my 3 day stay, my sister took Benson for the day so we took the babe to Target on the way home (guess it's tradition now!) & introduced him to the the kitty babes & got cozy in bed.

My recovery was going great until I woke up on day 5 with a rash all over my body & swollen everywhere to the max!  I called in & they told me to stop my meds & to make it thru the next day & come in.  After a rough day, I started having a hard time breathing & started feeling chest pains which led to a little late night ER visit.  X-ray, Blood Work, EKG, & CT Scan later.. I had fluid in my lungs!  They gave me some meds to flush it out & send us home at 2 am.

Our transition from one to two so far has been somewhat seamless.  The average toddler tantrums have occurred & the only thing that seems to be affected is Benson's sleep.. which is so tragic since we are so sleep deprived already but we're tag teaming it, one person per baby.
Other than that though, Benson has been mostly unaffected by the whole transition & warms up more & more to him every day.  He isn't super into holding him but he loves saying "tute bebe" & "peeaboo bebe" whenever his eyes are open.  Warms my heart to see him love on him!

Baby's first bath.
Hated it until he was all snuggled up in his towel.

One week old!
Sleeps all day & eats ALL night.
& a dream baby with the sweetest eyes!

First family outing!
The pumpkin patch 2 blocks from our house seemed like a safe enough place to go!

The two week mark also marked my first day with the two babies all by myself.  It went better than expected, but while I was nursing (two seperate times) Benson colored all over a wall & dumped out an entire bottle of baby oil.  We barely survived mostly because we took a big ol family nap & then Kevin brought home dinner! But.. we survived!

Atticus: fresh 48 session

My lovely friend Jessica offered to do some fresh 48 pictures for us in the hospital & they are so precious!  I love every single one! & how she got some of Benson (the uncooperative 2 year old) I have no idea other than maybe magic?  He was so not in the picture mood but we got some real gems!  The newborn days goes by so fast & I'm so glad we got some pictures of those first moments in the hospital.


Atticus Birth Story part two

Kevin wheeled in Atticus for the first time & it was the most surreal feeling meeting him for the first time.  It's true what they say that your heart will make room for another baby to love.  I had tears in my eyes as they handed him to me & my body was flooded with emotions.  I wanted to examine every inch of him.  Just a few hours ago he was wiggling inside of me, for just a short 9 months.

As I unswaddled him I soaked up every detail of him:
My first thought was how tiny he was!  He feels so much smaller than Benson did.
He looks so fragile & angelic.  He was almost like a doll just laying so peacefully in my arms.
I can't believe that I have two babies now!
He has HAIR! Not like a lot, but the little bit he has is so cute & so soft! He has hair!!!
He has Kevin's nose.
He is so beautiful, I never want him to leave my side now.
I can't wait to see what Benson thinks of him.

Kevin placed him on my chest & I was in heaven (despite the whole nausea thing), I could just live in this moment forever.  A sweet fresh from heaven baby on my chest.  To relive that moment over & over I would have 100 babies.  It's the best feeling in the world holding your sweet baby in your arms for the first time.

We did skin to skin & nursed for the first time & just spent the afternoon the three of us.  The room was so full of love for this little baby.

Later that day Benson came to meet his baby brother.  I knew that it probably wouldn't be that special bonding moment that I had pictured in my head & I was right.. he walked in & looked at Atticus & then went about his business of destruction.  We bribed him with a cookie to come up on the bed & sit by me & Atticus.  After a few minutes of warming up to him he became fascinated with all of his tiny features poking every one of them & counting "one, two lips" "one, two eyes" "one, two, three, four five!" It was pretty tender seeing him interact with him.

Atticus birth story part one.

We made it all the way to our c-section date! Atticus was able to grow & stay healthy enough to stay put until 39 weeks, which we are so grateful for!  The days leading up to our c-section he was VERY active & causing all sorts of contractions so pretty sure he was just as ready as I was to be done with pregnancy.  The night before our c-section we took Benson & went on a pre-baby-brother celebration pizza date as a family.  The whole night as we ate our dinner, gave him a bottle, tucked him into bed I was teary eyed feeling all of the emotions of having a new baby joining our family & knowing Benson is no longer my only baby & would be a big brother when he woke up in the morning!  So bittersweet but also so exciting to end one chapter of our lives & begin another!

We woke up bright & early at 4:30 a.m., got dressed & ready & arrived at the hospital 15 minutes late..in true Kuhle fashion. haha We were the first c-section scheduled! We got checked in & they began the process of prepping me for surgery!  I don't remember how long the process of prepping really is, it took them until 7:30 to get every last detail ready for me to go into surgery.  We were wide awake going into everything this time, even though we barely slept the night before (due to excitement!).  It was a lot more calm this time around, I just laid there & got poked & prodded & Kevin played with our camera trying to figure out the best settings for photographing the birth.  By 7:30 we were all ready to go!
Last bump picture! 39 weeks!
They wheeled me into the c-section room first & I hopped up on the table to get my epidural.  I was so nervous my entire body was shaking, but the poke wasn't even as bad as I had made it in my mind.  They laid me down on the table & scrubbed my belly & strapped me down to the table.  This was where I started to feel a little exposed haha I mean I was essentially butt naked on the table waiting for the Dr...which I was last time but this time I was wide awake just waiting it out.

They brought Kevin in after they got me all prepped, thank goodness he was able to comfort me & rub my hand while they started the procedure.

It went by so fast after this!  The Dr. came in & said "Let's have a birthday party!"  & within 10 minutes Atticus was out!

The plan was to bring him over & do skin to skin immediately but as soon as they pulled him out he wasn't sounding right so they started to look him over.  He was having a hard time breathing & wasn't crying very loud at all.  Everyone kept reassuring me that he was just fine, he was just fine.  Which..just made me think he wasn't fine.  They had a whole team of people surrounded around him so I couldn't really see him.  Although all of this was a good distraction from the whole "sewing me up" thing.

It felt like an eternity that they were over working on Atticus' breathing.  They had some of the NICU team come in to put him under an oxygen mask but decided he would do better in the NICU.  They let me see him for a couple of seconds, snap a few pictures, give him a quick kiss & then they took him.  Kevin went with them to watch over him while I was wheeled into my recovery room.

I didn't get to see Atticus for almost 3 hours while he was in the NICU working on his breathing.  We are so lucky that he just needed some extra oxygen & that was the extent of his problems.  They told us that it is more common for c-section babies to have problems with breathing at first since they aren't squished out of the womb so there is still fluid inside of them.  I spent the 3 hours waiting for him..throwing up from being on the epidural medicine.  I ended up throwing up for almost 6 hours,  I couldn't keep anything down & they finally realized I was having a reaction to the morphine  & took me off of it, then I was totally fine!

They wheeled me down to our room where we would be staying & not too long afterwards Kevin wheeled in Atticus for me to see him for the first time.

38 weeks bumpdate

The baby is the size of a: PUMPKIN! 

Gender: BOY!

Name: Atticus Ezra Kuhle 💙

Bump: Extra large & filled to the capacity!
I've ended up gaining 35 lbs overall, which is amazing compared to the 50 I gained with Benson (who I also owe the lack of weight gain to!)

Symptoms: Everything hurts. hahaha but really.  Everything hurts.
I'm super swollen.  Not as swollen as last time, probably due the temperature drop (hallelujah!) but still i'm swollen & have no shoes to wear!
Heartburn is..the worst.  I've been throwing up every night.  On top of my pee run & random insomnia strikes.
No more sleep, so naps for everyone!

Sleep: Naps are my saving grace.  I've been frequently napping while B naps.  I automatically wake up at 6 am, for no reason everyday, which makes for some long exhausted days.

Cravings/Aversions to Eating: Eating everything in sight haha I'm never like really "full" & mini powdered donuts are my LIFE right now.  I've oddly enjoyed apples lately & coffee.. is how i'm staying alive.  Also breadsticks.  Give me ALL THE BREADSTICKS.

Looking forward to: The birth & bringing our sweet baby boy home!  I've gone back & forth on if I want a C-Section or a VBAC.  I was set on a C-Section until they said I couldn't have one..& then I toyed with a VBAC & going unmedicated this time around.. & now I have a C-Section scheduled & that is the plan unless my body decides otherwise! I feel pretty calm about the C-Section process this time around knowing that it will actually probably be safer for Atticus if anything happens to be wrong with him.  The unknown is uneasy for me but i'm trying to think positive thoughts & focus on bringing a healthy happy baby home with us.

Benson has come to terms that there is probably something in my belly, probably a cat in his mind but he has gone on some wild mood swings.  He has been ALL dad for weeks & then this last week of pregnancy has suddenly been wanting me to hold him more & snuggle more.  Great timing, there is no more room haha
Having a 2 year old at the end of pregnancy has been pretty rough on all of us at times, I've wanted to sell him more times than not (kidding, but time out is his new jam) but hopefully a new brother is a good enough distraction for awhile.

35 weeks: My only wish this pregnancy was to make it past Benson's birthday! & we did it! I took on WAY too much this week & was suuuper swollen by the end of all the festivities but Benson has his last big "hoorah" week as being an only child!  The rest of the pregnancy is project de-junk & clean our house!

36 weeks: We prepped big time this week for babies arrival! The Dr has said a few times to plan on his arrival being at 38 weeks, so the countdown is really on!  We got everyone in the house up to date on their shots, even the kitties.  Finished up the crib in our room & packed everything so we are ready to go when the time comes! 

37 weeks: This week has been serious overhaul on cleaning & finishing projects before baby comes!  I think everyone in our house is getting anxious for his arrival!  Benson has finally come to terms that there is probably indeed a baby in my belly as I can't hold on or snuggle with him anymore, there just isn't much room!  The kitties are both being weirdos & oddly clingy.  Everyone knows something is up but we know they'll all be in love when Atticus finally comes home! & mom is running out of energy/stamina to do much more!

38 weeks: We had our LAST measurement ultrasound & non stress test to track baby & he passed!  So he gets to make it until his c-section date! Hooray!  I thought this last week would be more sentimental, but this mama is suuuuuper swollen & tired so we've spent a lot of time in bed napping & barely surviving on bagels & donuts.

*bonus story: Kevin really wanted to see Bladerunner 2049, so I said well I guess if i'm still pregnant we could probably go see it.  Well the stars aligned & we got a sitter & went to go see it! I saw maybe ONE movie when I was pregnant with Benson & was so uncomfortable but I've seen a handful of movies this time & have been alright minus a few pee breaks.  The movie was SO loud & SO uncomfortable & about 30 minutes into the movie I was having some intense contractions.  I figured I just needed to pee so I ran to the bathroom.. & after some (TMI) excess fluid & pain I started to feel like.. shit, I might be in labor.  This movie is like 3 hours long & I spent most of the time in the bathroom dealing with what I thought was labor.  Made it through the movie, picked up Benson & headed home to clean & possibly head to the hospital.. only to have everything end as soon as we got home.  So moral of the story: don't see movies at the 38.5 weeks pregnant haha.  Even if Ryan Gosling is in the movie.

Summer Maternity Session

We had our maternity pictures done by the lovely Meghan Bird in July & I'm obsessed with every single one of them!  This gallery is really just a sneak peek, we had so many beautiful pictures.  We ventured up Big Cottonwood Canyon, & it was magical up there!  Utah is so beautiful, especially when the mountains are filled with wild flowers.

Outfit Details:
M dress: H&M
K shirt: Gap // pants: TJ Maxx // shoes: Nordstrom
B: shirt: Old Navy // overalls: Little Cottonwood // shoes: Old Navy