The C Section (told by Kevin, as I was passed out from exhaustion)
They handed me all the operating clothes to put on, complete with a hat & mask. I was so nervous as I put them on, I put the mask on upside down and had to run out of the operating room to fix it before everything got started. They wheeled Megan into the room and switched her from her bed to the table. The anesthesiologist hooked Megan up to the morphine and the nurses got all the equipment ready while they gave me a chair & I took a seat next to Megan and held her hand. I could tell she was terrified and I was scared & just hoping that everything would turn out alright. They put the curtains up in front of us and started on the C Section. Megan was so exhausted she instantly was floating in and out of sleep after the morphine hit her. I knew how important it was for Megan to get a video of Benson's first cry, so I was getting our camera all ready for the big moment, but I couldn't start filming until they were done with the procedure for liability reasons so I just waited by the curtain.
I peaked over the curtain a few times and it looked like they were having trouble getting Benson out, probably from the 3 hours Megan pushed as hard as she could to get him down as far as he was. The last time that I looked over I could just see the doctor putting all his weight on Megan's stomach pushing Benson while the other doctor pulled him out from inside her stomach. I was so scared watching everything they were doing to both Megan and Benson. It was a good thing we had decided to do the C Section after all because Benson's cord was wrapped around his neck twice & I watched as the doctor unraveled the cord quickly as they pulled Benson out.
I started recording as they quickly transferred Benson over to his little table where they were trying to clear his airway to breathe and cry. This felt like it took a lifetime for him to finally breathe/cry (& I was almost too scared to be filming all of it). He was completely purple as the doctor shook him down and squeezed all the fluids out of him. Finally (what really was only probably one minute) he gasped for air and started crying, his color quickly changed and we could relax knowing he was here, breathing & crying.
When I got out of the C Section and back into the recovery room my mom and dad were both standing there waiting for me. We all just burst into tears as the congratulated me and tried to comfort me after the long hectic day of delivery. It was such a tender moment that I will always cherish. Not too long after I got to the room I started to doze off again, I could barely comprehend what everyone was saying and just would fall asleep mid sentence. I do remember Kevin running up to say hi and eating a popsicle (since apparently that was ALL I could have..I was STARVING). I just keep asking the nurse in between my naps where my baby was and when was he coming up?
After two hours the nurse cleared the room and Kevin came walking in with our tiny perfect baby. I burst into tears all over again seeing him and holding him. I just had to soak up every little finger and toe. He had the cutest little nose and ears. His poor head had a huge indent in it from where I had been pushing him into my pelvis, but he was still perfect in every way. We put him in my gown for skin to skin and he immediately wanted to nurse. He was born such a hungry little guy and latched on instantly. I just laid there in complete awe of him. My baby was here! I was nursing my sweet baby! It was a surreal feeling knowing he was in my arms, not my belly anymore! I just couldn't stop staring at him and feeling his soft little legs.